After reading their blogs, i suddenly feel so alone.
It seems that after everyone graduate from secondary school, they had continue with their new environment and new lives. For me, i had just started moving on about 2 months ago and start my new life!
Why did i think so much at the starting of this year? Should just listen to advice and don't care. Now, i am regretting how much time i had wasted. However, i can't blame you. It's my fault for keeping my hopes despite knowing that the ending will not be this way.
I can't believe it. Wasted one year of time. And when i look back, nothing seems happy for me to remember (except the time in poly and attachment). A year wasted.
A new year will be coming soo. I want to cherish all the time i have and make full use of it. You will never be a part in my memories. NO MORE!
I want to study hard and have good result. I want to exercise everyday! despite how tired i am! I want to..... And, i said not to blog about it again and yet i am doing so.
10:27 PM
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Didn't know i miss blogging so much. It has been a while before i last post something. Looking back at the previous posts, i wondered how stupid or how naive i had been. Having a fake hope over something.
We were once friends, best friend, couple and now, enemies. We been through so many things together and yet, because of a small matter, everything that we once had together was gone. The broken trust between the both of us cause us our whole friendship.
If only at that moment of time when i wanted you so badly and you come back to me, we won't be in this state now. If only you don't have a change of heart. I wanted to believe you when you told me that you still like me and hope to be together with me again, but.. my mind told me not to believe you again because believing you again means getting myself hurt again. Giving myself fake hopes over you? Is it worth it?
Or is it because i reject you so you find it a challenge to want to chase me back? I don't know.
Let everything that happen between us ends with a fullstop here. After this, all my previous post about you will be deleted. No point keeping it since i am going to stop anymore of this nonsense.
11:19 PM
Monday, November 29, 2010
THE MASSIVE CHANGES!!!
Girl’s Girl’s Generation made their surprised comeback after their phenomenal debut in Japan. They came back with this sexy retro spy girl’s concept. Every single members of SNSD have transformed from sweet innocent girls to be these mature sexy women images. The girls admitted that they have changed collectively but Girl’s Generation members themselves picked Seohyun, their very own maknae, as the one with the massive changes.
HYOYEON is Seohyun room mate. She knows her and her habits from A to Z. She loves Seohyun for what she is including her many weird and cute little habits, annoying and adorable in the same time. Hyoyeon knew that their lives would never be the same again after Seohyun married CNBlue Jung Yonghwa. She talked a lot now, she texted a lot, made and received calls a lot, and read different genre of books. She changed and improved a little bit everyday and Hyoyeon could easily tell that Seohyun has changed from top to toe. It made Hyoyeon happy. And the change in Seohyun Hyo Yeon loves the most was the fact that Seohyun looked happier and glowing more each day.
TAEYON knew that Seohyun marriage changed everything in not only to Seohyun herself but other SNSD members too including her. Taeyon even more protective to Seohyun than before and keeping an eye for CNBLUE’s activities especially to their leader, Seohyun’s husband Jung Yonghwa. When Sunye, the pretty leader of the famous WONDER GIRLS said that her ideal type was none other than her maknae’s virtual husband, Taeyon’s instinct as the oldest sister immediately alarmed to protect Seohyun by instinctively blurted to Sunye that her ideal type was actually taken by her youngest sister! It was a little embarrassing since the show was nationally broadcasted where she was there as one of the MC’s. But Taeyon would gladly do it all over again for Seohyun if she had to. Taeyon knew that she would never see the same Seohyun ever again and she misses her innocent princess maknae. The old Seohyun disappeared from her sight slowly and she appeared with a brand new image. No matter how much Taeyon misses the old Seohyun, she loves the new Seohyun more simply because she looked happier and alive. And all that Taeyon ever wanted for Seohyun is her to be happy.
TIFFANY knew that she always been worried about Seohyun and she wouldn’t stop worrying no matter what. Tiffany was the one worried when Seohyun didn’t seem to be interested to a guy and prefer sweet potato more. She was also worried when she saw the maknae didn’t stop to watch cartoon and keeps listening the Kerorro theme song on her mp3 players. She was worried when Seohyun told them that she would cast on WGM and she worried even more when she found out that the maknae’s virtual husband was CNBlue’s Jung Yonghwa simply because the guy was very popular among idol girls even he was a rookie in the industry. Her latest worry was the ‘in love’ signal she got from both Seohyun and Yonghwa. She knew that she couldn’t bear to see her loving maknae crying of broken heart when things don’t work with the couple. But no matter how big the worried she felt about Seohyun, Tiffany always knew that she willing to give anything, not only both hands and legs of hers but the world if it’s necessary to see Seohyun’s happy like she is now. Tiffany doesn’t care if people calling her paranoid or worried unnecessary. But even though she knew for sure that she could never stop worrying about Seohyun, Tiffany had only one thing to say this time, MY LITTLE SEOHYUN IS ALL GROWN UP.
JESSICA was known as the ice princess of the group! She’s been acting cool all the time, never overly shown her enthusiasm and pretty much cool with everything including the way she’s handling rumors and scandals. But Jessica herself felt that she was changed and her baby sibling Kristal, even said publicly that the ice princess image didn’t fit to her anymore. She really didn’t know what to say other than saying that she will need to change sooner or later. Well Jessica might changed a lot but no matter how much she changed, in Jessica’s point of view her changes could never beat the changes Seohyun showed her and the other SNSD members since ‘married’ their loving brother in-law, Jung Yonghwa. It’s been a daily topic among the members in the passed few months with or without Seohyun’s presences. Seohyun seemed to be different from the person she used to be but in a good way. She’s open up and expressed herself more these days, a little mysterious sometimes, and in general she appeared with a sexy image that completely new the unnies. Jessica had been trying to be cool about the whole changes in Seohyun’s self and be just good listeners to the other member’s happiness and complaints about Seohyun’s new image. She was there when Seohyun and Yonghwa performed together on their 200th day’s anniversary and watched their performance with the other SNSD’s members through TV monitor backstage. She loved what she saw that day. She saw love from both Seohyun and Yonghwa. And Jessica knew she couldn’t stay cool any longer and decided a smile wouldn’t be enough to express the feeling she had when Yonghwa offered his hand for Seohyun to hold. Jessica found herself screaming loudly beside the other SNSD members. She felt warm inside by the happiness reflected from the face of her precious maknae. Jessica knew that Seohyun was waiting to be change the way Jessica awaits for herself to change. Change is not always bad, Jessica thought. And when her mind comes to that thought, she felt that her heart was filled with warm emotions and she’s happy that she has changed.
YOONA considered herself lucky. She got all what most girls in Korea wanted the most. The face, the popularity, and be in most popular Korean’s Girl Group SNSD all at once. Yoona has no problem getting along with every SNSD’s member since the first day but as two youngest members in the group Yoona feel that she bonded more with Seohyun. They went to the same school and she couldn’t help the feeling of treating Seohyun as her own baby sister. Seohyun always been cute and Yoona adore her and love everything she saw in Seohyun from top to toe. She’s proud and honored to be one of the people able to watched Seohyun grown up beautifully like she is today. Yes, Seohyun has grown up to be a very beautiful young woman. One thing that made Seohyun special was she’s completely clueless of her own beauty and that’s what Yoona loved the most in Seohyun. And now she’s married, a fake-one but she technically is married. Since she started to cast on WGM and spending times together with Jung Yonghwa to film their marriage life episodes, Yoona saw that Seohyun looked prettier and happier. Yoona never been jealous over Seohyun and she feel so happy for her. Seohyun once said that she thought Yoona looked prettier lately and she jokingly responds it is because she’s in love. Yoona knows that her look good comes from her happiness. If someone’s asking her what are the reasons for her happiness Yoona could never answered the questions because she had million reasons to be happy. One thing Yoona knows for sure that one of the million reasons of her happiness is Seohyun and her happy face she showed to Yoona every time she arrived home after filming a new episode with CNBlue Jung Yonghwa.
SOOYOUNG was born as the youngest in her family. Her family showered her with love but they never give, not until today Sooyoung most wanted gift for her birthday. A BABY SISTER! Sooyoung has fallen for Seohyun since the first day and wanted to adopt the one year younger girl to be the baby sister she never had. She almost got a heart attack when Seohyun said she casted on WGM and to be the fake wife of Jung Yonghwa, the leader of the newly debuted band CNBlue. And slowly she changed. Sooyoung misses Seohyun and blaming Jung Yonghwa for taking Seohyun away but she forgive him simply by the reason that Yonghwa brought smile and happiness in her baby sister’s life. Sooyoung never asked a lot for her birthday but this year Seohyun presented her something no one had ever given to her before, brother in-law named Jung Yonghwa.
YURI, is likely one of the most popular member of SNSD. She’s pretty, funny, and talented. Beside singing, dancing, acting, and modeling, she is now known as songwriter and composed one song for SNSD newest mini album. Like the rest of SNSD members, YURI felt the same bond with their precious maknae Seohyun. She’s the youngest and always been an object for the unnies jokes and loves. Seohyun said that she’s jealous in YURI abilities in composing song and hope to do the same in the future. She didn’t know that YURI had been jealous with her one time, it was the time when she finally watched the WGM’s episode, the one revealing that Seohyun was the reason behind LOVE LIGHT, the sweet romantic song composed by Jung Yonghwa.
SUNNY holds a master degree in aegyos. She famous and known nation wide by that special abilities of hers. She’s cute but Sunny always thought that her aegyos wouldn’t useful much her if she could only use them among her SNSD’s members, her family, closest friends and her SM families. She wanted to use her aegyos with someone she can call her own like a boyfriend but since she didn’t have one then for Sunny the aegyos just a tool for her to have fun. That’s why right now she really wanted to be in Seohyun shoes. Sunny realized that she aegyo with no difficulties nowadays even she didn’t do aegyos as much as Sunny and she never been known as the nation aegyo’s queen. Why? Why did Sunny wanted to be in Seohyun shoes for once? Simple, because Seohyun got something Sunny always wanted, an object for her to show her aegyos. And it’s Jung Yonghwa, her make-believe husband.
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5:07 PM
Saturday, November 13, 2010
1. Why did you chose to become a singer?
Key: Since I was young, my dream is to become a singer. But on the other way I have other dreams. For example, a painter/artists. Either way I always wanted to work relating to Art. My dream of becoming a singer is always there inside of me.
2. Since debut, What is your most memorable episode?
Key: I went to a CD shop and bought our first album. I still remember that time.
3. Besides Music, What are your other influences?
Key: Fashion and Art. It really gave me an “inspiration”. Some people think that it’s unrelated field but Visual is all about looks.
4. In the future, What would you like to challenge?
Key: Do our best in various activities as SHINee, My hope and dream is also that were going to experience a lot.
5. What is the first thing you’ll do when you wake up in the morning?
Key: I check my Cellphone and iPod.
6. What is your favorite Movie?
Key: “ただ, 君を愛してる” (Tada Kimi wo Aishi teru”) Ahh….When I think of it, This is a Japanese Movie. Also, “Dreamers”.
7. How about your favorite Anime and Manga?
Key: I like all of Ghibli’s work. “The Borrower Arrietty” was recently published right? I reaaaally love this movie. I was hoping that Arrietty really exists as much as I love it. Even my fans really know that I love Ghibli so much that they gave me a present for me relating to Ghibli. I want “Arrietty” as a present. A real and alive “Arrietty” (Laughs)
8. Your Favorite Word?
Key: I have a lot of favorite words. For Example, “In order to get 1% of inspiration, do your best for 99%”, “Efforts will always pay off”…
9. What do you do during Holidays?
Key: Meet my friends, Go Shopping and Lesson.
10. What is the most scary for you?
Key: I’m scared when I always think “I hate”. Once I think I hate doing this or like that, I didn’t want to do it anymore or get frustrated . Anyway relating to negative..it is scary and I’m worried.
11. What do you do in order to release your stress?
Key: Before my stress will accumulate, I frequently release it.
12. The most relaxing place for you?
Key: My Bed.
13. Domestic Artist you want to collaborate to?
Key: FT Island’s Jaejun. He is my very close friend. Also, Jaejun as a singer is a Senior and the first one to have activities in Japan so he really thought me a lot. Jaejun is a Bassist so if we do it together, I think it’s going to be fun.
14. What song do you listen recently?
Key: Justin Bieber’s songs.
15. What is your role in SHINee?
Key: I think a role as a bridge.
16. Which member are you going to take to a deserted island?
Key: Taemin.
17. Your Favorite Food and least Favorite Food?
Key: My least Favorite food is Carrot. Recently, I love Italian foods. Pasta and Italian Salad Dressing is especially delicious.
18. Your happiest moment recently?
Key: My Birthday party. I called a lot of my friends and we held a party and it was really fun.
19. What do you most concern about now?
Key: It’s Fashion. For now, I’m anxious about Autumn/Winter Fashion.
20. What do you want to do until the end of the year?
Key: I think receiving an award.
21. This is the only thing I can’t beat to no one.
Key: I think being greedy. I want to do a lot of things. Without realizing by myself I did a lot of things that I like to do.
22. What would you say if you meet yourself during your debut?
Key: Go/Take more lessons!
23. A single word for yourself.
Key: “I love You.” I’m not a worthy person so I love myself. I’m mediocre.
24. For Next Year, What is your promise?
Key: I’ll do my best next year more than this year. In overseas and in the country as well.
25. Messages for the reader.
Key: Compare to the other countries, I think Japan has more international exchange in South Korea. Through this magazine, we are happy if you can get information about K-pop and about us.
KEY >>>MINHO
Q.Your 1st impression of Minho?
A. When I saw him, suddenly I thought he is a foreigner. And I thought he is older than me.
Q. If you compare him to a color?
A. Black.
Q. A message for Minho!A. I want to become more closer to him. This is my wish so I don’t know what Minho is thinking….. (Laughs)
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12:44 AM
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